I feel hated.

Discussion in 'Miscellaneous' started by synth_apparition, Feb 24, 2013.

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  1. The title says a small part of it. I'll go on...

    Over the past few days, people have been ignoring me. And when they aren't ignoring me, they aren't saying anything nice. I've had several people message me on Facebook saying i'm a weird kid who should rot in my own crap, and now I can't bring myself to go on that website.

    The other day, I argued with my friend and it got really heated, until he said "go die". We left our Skype call and haven't talked since.

    Now, my best friend is ignoring me. I message her, saying I want to talk about stuff, and she says "can't. I'm busy with my own things". She recently made the decision to go into modelling, and i've supported her with that decision, and now she won't even talk to me and the modelling thing is over for the next few weeks.

    I think i've gone back to stage 2 of my life when everybody hated me. I can't bring myself to eat. Today, I ate my breakfast, had a potato-cake for dinner, and then forced stuff down my own throat for tea. I get like this when I feel like I should just make everyone happy and kill myself.

    I really don't know what the hell i'm doing right now. I don't know why i'm telling an online community of people who have better things to do about my problems... just went to let it out, I guess...
  2. I don't hate you.
  3. We all love you (Well, not in a love love way) on EMC. :)
    Xenonrai, mba2012, 607 and 8 others like this.
  4. Do NOT kill yourself. You were given life for a reason, and the reason is not to throw it away. Things like this happen. You and your friends will get things smoothed out eventually because, we'll, your friends. That's what friends do.
    Everything will be ok. You just have to be patient.
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  5. Get on mumble. They are a really nice group of people.
    mba2012, Curundu, PRO_G4NGST4 and 2 others like this.
  6. I went through a stage where I did not eat much because I was depressed. I know that feel, bro.
    mba2012, BudN_Keef, 607 and 1 other person like this.
  7. I've been patient my whole life. From year 2 and onwards, people have bullied me...I don't know what for. It's been whenever somebody is feeling angry, annoyed or just in the mood to pick on someone, they went straight to me. I had no real friends, just people I liked to be around but then got punched to the ground by them eventually.
    Year 4 is when I started having breakdowns, which still come to me in year 8 (the present), in classes. I now have a mentor because of these.

    Allocating friends was a problem when I started High School last year. I was really popular at one point, then 2 months after I started HS, rumors spread around about me and I isolated myself. From everyone. For a month...
    Then I found one friend, somebody who I talked to in tutor became my friend...and then he introduced me to his friends, two of which never liked me, and one still dislikes me. It was in May that I found my best friend.

    Also, fun fact: 3 of my IRL friends play EMC :D
  8. im with you guys, i know how it feels to :p
  9. Should also mention when I feel upset and/or angry I get insomnia. I had that last night, but I knocked myself out at 6 in the morning and woke up at 1 in the afternoon. I advise you to not try and knock yourself out. It hurts.
  10. I was the opposite; when I was really, really depressed I slept all the time.
  11. how did you do it? i have my own methods if i cant sleep, waking up in the floor isnt that nice xD
  12. I love you Soul, in every way. And remember, the internet will always exist.
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  13. That sounds creepy...
  14. Too Late
  15. As Tom Hanks said in Forest Gump: "Mamma always said, life is like a box of chocolate, you never know what you're going to get". Ignore the people around you, dont listen to them. Be yourself and now someone who you arent.
  16. Well...
    My bed is a bunk bed, with a wardrobe, my desk and shelves beneath it. I tucked myself in, so it would look like I was asleep, and then leaned back on my bed really hard, and then slammed my head on my ceiling. It's kind of scary, because the whole world spins, then it gets fuzzier and then darker, and darker. Until eventually, I wake up with a really sore head and a phone that reads 13:09.
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  17. Yeah... that is not a good idea...
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  18. Life is a spiraling hell of disappointments and depression, only ended by a slow and painfull death.

    - D.J. Magic 8
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  19. Tell people how you feel or just get into an activity to find new friends that won't ignore you.
  20. Soul, to be honest I can't really relate to what you're going through, because I've never had to deal with that stuff. Also, I know that you're not a Christian, and seeing how the only way I would deal with something like that would be finding comfort in Christ, it's a little hard for me to relate to you. However, I do know that it is our struggles that make us who we are, and if we can persevere, we can come out on the other side stronger. Make sure that you find someone to talk to in real life, be it an adult you respect, a parent, a sibling, or a friend. Locking up all your feelings, even if you are lucky enough to be able to discuss them at a safe place here in EMC, is never healthy. Even if this doesn't mean much to you, I'll be praying for you. :)
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