It’s now officially been 1 year since I last spoke to my dad and seen him smile. I’d do anything to re-experience that FaceTime call.
Might be something to do with how I’ve not been able to get therapy or see a doctor about anything throughout lockdown, and the only charities I know of that deal with grief support focus on women/widows/children so I can’t get help there either. With that said, I wouldn’t have taken any help anyway and I still wouldn’t. So hey, who knows? 🤓
Woohoo! Always good news to hear that - hope you feel better from whatever is still ailing you soon though!
Just a cold that pulled out the flu symptoms on me :P it’s gone already, just dealing with the cough it’s left behind that’s going to get me funny looks now that I can go out into public again. Relieving to hear it’s not COVID though for sure
She’s seeing someone else. Things haven’t been great between us since I became a grief and PTSD riddled mess so it was expected. But, man, I’ve lost a good one. That’s a big oof. :/
Lucky and Tbird, you’re right. I’ve spent the day thinking of all the emotionally manipulative/toxic things she’s done to me since my dad died, starting on the night I was informed he was going to die... it’s a very, very long list. I really wasn’t missing out on anything at all. But, blegh, four years of my life...
Like Tbird said if you ever need to talk you can pm me and I'm sure her too. I've been in your shoes before. Best wishes to ya.
Man, big oof on this one. If she's that abusive and manipulative, she definitely wasn't worth the time and energy. If you ever need to talk to someone, my DMs are rated E for everybody.
To be honest, I’m not sure yet lol. The fish selection is up to my mum and she doesn’t seem to have decided yet. I’m making it with catfish at least in mind so if we do get any, which she said she 100% wants, they can’t hurt themselves lol
One year ago today I was flying to a faraway place I’ve never visited. My dad was sat across the aisle from me with his headphones on, unaware that in two months he’d be dead. I was sorting out the last of my uni stuff. Life used to have a point.
Not the moment of my death worries me so, but what kind of a man is left of me when that time comes. Life still has a point. As long as your heart is beating, you have a reason. I don't know what my purpose is, but there's no evidence to doubt it's existence. I'll find my way, and I hope that you will too.
Had a weird dream with (not about) my dad last night. I don’t remember anything about it besides that I started crying when I saw him, he hugged me, told me some quote about grief he learned from his ‘great granddad who was alive 700 years ago’, and also cooked food for me. 🤔
I'm lucky if I get this from my dad in real life You should really look this dream up too. Look up every individual thing that happens, keep it broad, and see if anything connects. I don't believe in horoscopes or zodiacs but I do believe dreams, after multiple experiences I've had personally.
I had a nightmare, or at least the ending was like a nightmare, where we were going to the beach and my mother remarked between sentences that Dad would be coming too. I'm glad we buried him, so I know that he can't (reasonably) be alive somewhere on earth hiding things from us.
I suppose that if he would be I might eventually be happy for it, but I'm glad I don't have to take the possibility into account, for even if his body would've been missing the chance of it would still be extremely low.
This was 100% worth squirting super glue all over my fingers for lol. Really happy with how this turned out even if the wood is way bigger than I expected https://imgur.com/a/zsvcaOO
I rate this higher than when I cut my finger on glass and it got stuck in me. Venom is overkill man wtf
China is threatening my country with ‘consequences’ because we’re kicking their companies out of our vital infrastructure and moving away from them economically, I couldn’t be prouder :-)
My sister just said my biceps look disgusting. Feels good to have people point out your new gainz you’ve spent the past month and a half weightlifting for 😎