Standing at 64 inches, I've been short pretty much my whole life. Despite the remarks that I get for it, I am usually able to hold my own. I was doing quite well until reality hit me. Up until 7th grade, I never believed height was a problem, maybe I was perceived as a younger kid than everyone else, but I was okay with that. That was, until I quickly discovered I wasn't really deemed attractive by anyone due to it. I realized that because of this, I won't have much luck with girls. I thought, "maybe I will hit a growth spurt some time in high school." I am in grade 11 now. I'm still shorter than most of my peers, and I will admit this - it sucks. I have never had a girlfriend, and as far as I'm aware of, no girl ever liked me. Due to being in a constant state of worry, I decided to contact my pediatric, whom referred me to an endocrinologist. I've had some tests done, including IGF-1 (insulin growth factor) and an x-ray of my wrists. I've done the bone age test many times, each with different results. I've become incredibly disappointed, even to a point of depression at times. I worry that in the future, I'll never end up being with someone. Despite all of this, wanting to be in a relationship is not the only root cause of my disappointment. When I meet people in public and tell them my age, most of them are in shock. "How are you a 'junior' you're so small". It bugs me a lot, but in reality there is nothing I can do about it. Throwback to 8th grade when I really liked this girl. She was one of the very few girls that actually talked to me, and I developed feelings for her over time. Told her that near the end of the year and she pretty much stopped talking to me. I feel like this topic has never been actually brought up and discussed about. I know I have all the odds stacked up against me when it comes to dating, but honestly I've got to keep trying. Maybe I haven't started quite yet, but I hope that I will get there. If I was taller, I honestly don't think I would be the same person I am today. It's changed me in so many ways, and I'm well aware of other people feeling the same as I do. I've learnt to respect that, and I can relate with others who have low self-esteem. If it weren't for that, I honestly think that I would be like most people and pick on those who aren't deemed "attractive" in this society. For anyone else who is reading this and can correlate, just keep trying man. I learned that everything that happens in life is by chance, and I have to work with what I've got.