If you have been following me for the last two month which I all hope you have been; I returned about two months ago and I want to tell of my return back. I feel as it is necessary to fulfill my community of my behavior and interaction check, just to make sure you aren't scared of these fangs of course. Since about what it felt like a month waiting for my email and appeal to process through our wonderful staff team here, I was allowed back to EMC on the condition that I will follow the rules. As a precaution to myself to limit the temptation of illegal mods, I disabled the printer function of schematica and threw away the x-ray pack which was still lingering in my resource pack from April of 2016. I don't want to make the silly mistakes again of costing myself and others. I knew when I joined back to EMC, my social skills needed work and regaining my old friends and gaining others were on my mind. I had a past relationship with ended in shambles and I pmed the individual concluding that I was very sorry for actions that were done and hope for the best in the future if we can become friends again. There was a reply of hopefulness of a friend in the future. I went down the list of other old friends. Their interactions got worse and I was being thrown into situations which got me in trouble before being banned... They were dropped and not my friends anymore and I moved on from them, learning on who to actually call friends. I got into a group a month later and again was horrified on the sights of two-sidedness. When a person is nice and throwing shade behind peoples backs. Overall bullying and attempts of stopping drama were futile within the group in some cases I shouldn't of allowed it to happen. It was awful sight and I got myself away from the hideous scenes I witnessed. I unfriended them all and continued my search for the good people that I knew EMC had. With the introduction of EMC discord, I might have found my social fork can be stuck into. Like I said, still in a work in progress and I hope I have found my group of people. With some help, I had my event FNM (Foxy's Night Miners) and a service Foxy Skin Service restarted which I was very excited to do again. I had a half month run into the Skin Service and by early October, my skin service stopped because I was forcing myself to create skins for others. It's not my style and now the thread is collecting dust. As for my event, I had to skip the month of October due to school and my non-readiness for October. Foxy's Night Miners isn't going away anytime soon. That event is my bread and butter and TBird1128 and at one point in time, KikuDusk kept the event alive while I was gone. They are forever in my debt of doing something they didn't have to. As for my projects, there is always work to be done. However, my goal of 36 residences within a square is almost complete. The build that I have been so keen on keeping "secret" will be started by the end of this month and donations of stone and dirt will be open for everyone to pitch in. My outpost has many goals and they are being worked on. Still trying to drain a temple with Slip55, a very amazing companion indeed, teaching her all the tips and tricks that I have from 7+ years of Minecraft. The only issue with my projects is trying to put my input into a build which I have the social error of an idea or plan. Just recently, I had a case which I was told to build a castle but had the wrong intention of tearing out and creating new walls that were already in place. I was apologetic beyond belief to the team which had the original idea. Again, social skills of mine are still in a work and I paid the price. If you got this far, congrats I wouldn't think you would have read this far into my overall return back to EMC. I don't make long threads often but as I said before I think it's important for me to talk to you all, the community about me. It limits the timidness of actually coming up to me and saying hello. I thank you for taking your time reading and I hope you have a good day
All I got for this is, we are here for you. Always will be. EMC is a second family that can never be abandoned or forgotten. We are all your friends, even with previous altercations that went south. Just keep doing what you're doing, and just be a friendly person. Everyone likes a friendly person to talk to. In other word, be anyone but me. because I hate everyone.
That reply escalated quickly. Hate is such a strong word. I do agree with your other statement though. EMC is a second family and we don't always get along. However, given the capacity to change for the better, we still put up with each other and will be there when push comes to shove.
me saying I hate everyone is both the truth and a joke. I call it The Hate Paradox. I suffer from it a lot. But today i'm optimistic. Tomorrow could be hell and I would not want to be here.
Well I read the entire post and I am glad you wrote it. I didn't have any run Ins with you but let me know when you are taking stone donations and I'll make it happen.
I have known you for awhile, Foxy. Joined up on your FNM events, and enjoyed your build at lakeside. I've called you friend for awhile - Glad you are back around!
P.S. I think you built me an automatic-stone generator within the first few weeks of me joining EMC, on my res!
Putting up is more than necessary with some, I do agree with you there Krysyy. While I was away I did feel that disconnect between family and I was eager to come back online and I was happy I was accepted back.
Well, good on you Foxy. Keep your head high and nose outta trouble. No matter what you do or where you go, toxic people will try their best to bring you down. I had a co-worker in the window cleaning company I work for a couple months ago who would literally be a complete jackwagon to me just to get under my skin. Having an older brother who did the same thing helped me ignore his attempts, but it got to the point I loathed going to work. Fortunately for me, he quit because "the weather was too much" for him. Now, three months later, I enjoy getting to work and I even work faster than when he was with me. It just goes to show, keep your head outta the outhouse hole and ignore those who try to shove you in.
We love you Foxy, and hope to keep you back forever. You are an amazing partner, and I love building new things with you, and learning all those new tricks. ("What do you mean build with the land? Roads are not natural land. I am confused." XD ) Love having you here, ~Slip
I'll use you as an example Slip again because you did reply Slip55 was a player that I met from just passing through smps, souring for friends. My charm landed on this fine owl, from friends to a steady relationship. It's quite a journey there, but that is another story to tell Yeah, one of my favorite styles is to terraform lands to give the impression that the land was made that way to be built.
Welcome back, Foxy. I'm glad you've learned from your past mistakes/behavior. I am a strong believer that people, given time, can change for the better, especially seeing as how I have done that myself multiple times IRL and seen others do it. There's only one person I've interacted with in the past year who hasn't changed in a good way since I've met him (IRL), so that's a clear indicator that most people do change eventually. Good luck with whatever projects you may have planned. Krysyy is right. Hate is a strong word. Hatred doesn't get you anywhere good, whether soon or in the long run. But yes, I do agree with your other statement.
The thing is you just need to be patient and see what they do. Actions speak more than your words and I hope you can agree. It takes time to know people and when you knew them for over 1+ years and their character changed for worse... You can expect me to find different people. I know too well people change over time; however, it's the person's destiny of where they go no matter on others suggestions. My interactions with others are no different, they always change depending on the person. My enthusiasm is actually finding new people to talk to. I can say proudly, I've made Luneyia, GreenMeanie, Joshua_350z, Velma_T_Jinkies, and much more. Heck if you want you can come on down to discord and chat at night if you want of course lol
