Hey everyone, this is going to be about as informal as you can get so sorry.I just wanted to talk about me? I sound selfish sorry. I've been going through stages of feeling like absolute @$!€, oh by the way this is rated (15) So basically I'm really struggling to be well happy I guess. My family are being as supportive as they can be and doing everything they can to make me smile but nothing is working. I am happy but it will only last for as long as I remember what made me smile and seeing as I have a certain condition I do not wish to speak about I have a terrible memory.So many 'events' have occurred in my life that I have no one to talk about.. That's the main issue I've been feeling shit. I just have no one to speak to and yeah I'll admit with only my sister as a friend I'm lonely okay. I do have 'friends' on emc I guess but only a few are real. I would like to say thank you so so much to Ladblo actually, she's been an amazing help and the best friend anyone could ask for. Another one is Pab10s, we didn't start in the most amazing way possible but he's really helped me get through some tough times, there are others but I do not wish to list their names. I wish there were set people to talk to. Real people! Not these fake people you meet, I'm talking about the ones that really love you for who you are. I thought I had a lot of friends but trust me you need to be careful who you call your friend. I'm not very good at talking about this.. there was a lot motemore I wanted to say but thinking back amto everything isn't nice. I don't eant sympathy or any of that I just want someone to talk to? I don't care who, I never knew it would be this hard to find someone that cares and someone that WANTS to be there for you.I would like to end with a short note. My grangrandad told me this the week he passed away fod bless his soul. "Don't pick your friends... Let your friends pick you" He wanted me to stop trying to make friends with people I thought I liked, he said if they truly wnat you in their life they will make the effort.Thank you for reading this, it really does mean a lot and sorry it's very unorganised. Please do feel free to PM me if you need someone to talk to or just want to get to know me? I know what it's like. I know what those dark places are like and I wouldn't ever wish it upon someone. I know what it's like so I prevent others from going there. My name is Matthew as some may know and I'm a 16 year old male finishing secondary school. I wish you all the best.